An epiphany of sort and ‘they are just computer people’

In exploring many different spiritual practices, I’ve come to love the mystical teachings and practices of both Kabbalah and Christian mysticism.

All of this EQII drama has, for the most part, occurred during Lent, and I’ve always found Lent to be a spiritual challenge. Don’t misunderstand – I’m not a practicing Roman Catholic but there is a tremendous relevance to the Liturgical calendar and spiritual growth if one is aware.

Each weekend, I receive a weekly “Tune Up” from a Kabbalah teacher that is, more often than not, always quite relevant to my current life events. In the course of this recent EQII adventure, I received the following about aspects of the Ego’s dark side (aka “lower part of yourself”).

In other words, recognize, admit, and acknowledge those ugly little traits that live within you, no matter how scary the prospect might be. Once you overcome the fear of acknowledging the lower part of yourself, then go to the next phase, which is to work very hard at eliminating those traits from your nature.

hmmmmm……… it was in the course of reflecting on this that I had to acknowledge my on hubris about wanting to be someone ’special’ to the person who introduced me to EQII. And the epiphany that followed is what really hit me upside the head.

I had became upset about a married man flirting with someone else instead of me in a fantasy role playing game. The same man who described players of this EQII game as ‘just computer people’.

*slaps forehead AGAIN*

So many Lessons in all of this, on so very many levels. I’m going to go through many, many candles before these Lessons are all integrated.